Sins

Note to self : one silly mistake that leads to massive destruction.

What about now?

My aunt texted me last night when I was all stressed up due to the coming exams.

She asked if I miss home.

I replied her that I miss everything back there, I even miss things that I usually don't like about.

That is how desperate I am.

Sometimes, I don't get the whole idea of me being here.

We search for the desirable comfort zone all the time.

I know where my comfort zone is, I found my comfort zone 1 year ago.

But, here I am now...far far away from it.

Alone.

Why?

It doesn't make sense eh?

Maybe I will get to know the answers to it down the road....

Or...maybe I will never know?

25 hours

Last night was horrible.

Maybe it is the most terrible night ever..

A guy from the hall popped up a question that I have no answer to.

Instead of giving a yes no answer, I explained myself....

Yea...WTH!

After lunch, I went to check the mails, and was surprised with Lenny's mail.

Hahahahaha.

The little "advice" written on the envelope drew a smile on my face.

That mail made my day.

I'm thankful.

Mouring

Today, I am listening to the songs I used to play in the car when I was at work...

I suddenly miss those times when I was working very hard.

I enjoyed the mixed feelings between fun, exhausted, frustrated and satisfaction.

I enjoyed the 4WD given by the company to me.

I enjoyed having to drive hundreds of kilometers to work everyday.

I enjoyed driving at 120-140km/h.

I enjoyed the adrenaline rush.

I enjoyed working as a team.

I enjoyed working with the guys.

I enjoyed having all the attention from the guys because I was the only girl.


Unfortunately, I wont be able to feel the same again.

Never will.

Because?

I am a girl.